God has always been in control

Roman's 13 ; 12 the night is nearly over;the day is almost here, so let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light

We went to church Sunday, I did not go last Sunday because they always take communion on the first Sunday of the month and I am still not comfortable yet doing it. But as I am finding out I am not in control like I have always thought I was . When I walked in to the sanctuary on Sunday morning the first thing I saw was the communion trays out. I chuckled and said to myself God I get the message. Then the pastor and the deacons decided they would have a different service this week, they asked members if they would give testimony and a few did and I sat there thinking but did not stand up at first as the last gentleman finished , I hesitated

and the pastor moved on so I just sat there and I kept talking to God within myself and I finally

said that if pastor Chuck went back and asked if there was anymore testimony I would stand

and tell that I was thankful for my family and for God deciding to work on my heart. I now

see that I have never been in control in my life he has guided me all along, he has a plan. As I sat there thinking about what God may have planned for me. I have thought often why i made it out of the neighbor hood I grew up in hells half acres as it was called. A couple of guys I ran around with are now dead and some are alcoholics and drug addicts. Why was I able to get away from that lifestyle and others remain. At times I even doubted God I did not understand why he waited so long to bless Tari and I with Kenny Ray we had been married for 15 years before we were blessed. I could not understand why some people where blessed and have them aborted or

given up for adoption or some children to be ignored completely or as my Grandfather would say

they act like a cow just lick and send them on their way. I have often thought maybe I was to selfish and greedy in my youth or maybe I would not of been as good of a father in my twenties
as I think I have been in my forties only he knows the reasons why. I do know this that I have never been happier its like everything that I thought was a problem is no longer a problem. All the answers to questions of life are in the bible. You just have to read and ask god to let you put on the armor of light.